I Just Keep Smiling...

I got into work this morning with a smile expecting good news to reach me within the next 24 hrs but when I opened my mail box I saw it there and it wasnt good at all. The one thing I wanted desperately to work out for me was a no show. I had been rejected! Well! If I know myself, I sshould have had a nasty feeling in the pit of my stomach and then I should have probably puked, but I didnt. I was calm. I stepped out and called my friend Mahesh and informed him that yeah, I had been given a BIG FAT NO.

It was upsetting. I was an excellent candidate but I guess it wasnt meant to be. I cried a bit coz hey, I was disappointed but somehow I wasnt as sad as I would have expected to be. My sister was suprised at the calm in my voice and the fact that I took it so well. I mean honestly, my life is a bit of a mess right now, just like any of you guys out there. The job market sucks and my work isnt all that it used to be so I am in a bad place that way. AND I am single...I dont have a boyfriend anywhere on the horizon so I guess that sucks too...and I have loans...like huge loans to pay off...:) so basically life isnt all that great right now...but I am hanging in there.

Hey, I have handled worse in my life. I have been to hell and back so I guess all these things are nothing in comparison. So when I put all my hopes into this one thing and it hasnt worked out, I would have thought that I would break down. But here I am..1hr 14 mins after the news writing this blog entry and nope...not one tear in my eyes...instead I am smiling. I am ACTUALLY smiling. I have no idea how!!

I guess, I was prepared for the bad news. I wasnt expecting it but I guess I knew that if I didnt make it I would just move along. I mean I cant sit and cry over something I can do nothing about right? So might as well plan for the WHAT NOW?

Well! I will take it ONE GRAIN AT A TIME :) So today I will

1. Finish my work

2. Try and leave early today as I am down with the flu anyways

3. When I get home I will order Thai red curry and rice

4. Go to the gym for about an hour

5. Watch FRIENDS

6. Watch a movie, probably Seven Pounds

7. Read in bed before sleeping

8. Thank God for the day even if it didnt go as I planned or wanted

I guess I just have to move on and walk away from the disappointment of things not working out. I know God has bigger and better plans for me. If he hasnt given me what I wanted he has done it for a reason. Everything he has done for my better only. Whenever in the past he has shut a door he has opened a bigger window of opportunity for me. I wouldnt be who I am or where I am if he hadnt put me through the trials that he put me through. I know it will work out in the end. I just know it.

So anyways, here are some lessons I found on http://www.about.com/ ; its called Lessons from a Carpenter and these lessons are true for anyone...

As a carpenter, Jesus must have learned many tricks of the woodworking trade from Joseph. While tools and techniques have changed a great deal over the past 2,000 years, three simple rules that Joseph lived by still hold true today.

1 - Measure Twice, Cut Once

Wood was scarce in ancient Israel. Joseph and his apprentice Jesus couldn't afford to make mistakes. They learned to proceed with caution, anticipating the consequences of everything they did. It's a wise principle for our lives, too.

Thinking ahead prevents a lot of trouble. We should measure our spending against our income and not exceed it. We should measure our physical health and take steps to protect it. Just like the timber in ancient Israel, our resources are limited, so we should do our best to use them wisely.

2 - Use the Right Tool for the Job

Joseph wouldn't have tried to pound with a chisel or drill a hole with an ax. Every carpenter has a special tool for each task. So it is with us. Don't use anger when understanding is called for. Don't use indifference when encouragement is needed. We can build people up or tear them down, depending on which tools we use.

3 - Take Care of Your Tools and They'll Take Care of You

Joseph's livelihood depended on his tools. We have the tools our employer gives us, whether it's a computer or an impact wrench, and we have a responsibility to take care of them as if they're our own. But we also have the tools of prayer, meditation, fasting, worship, and praise. If we sink its truths deep into our minds then live them out, God will take care of us, too.

Like Joseph, we can mentor our apprentices--our sons, daughters, friends and relatives--teaching them the skills to pass knowledge on to the generation after them. God has given us all the tools and resources we need. Whether you're at your place of business or at home or at leisure, you're always on the job. Work for God with your head, your hands, and your heart and you can't go wrong.

So I guess, I will try and follow these lessons, learn to stop worrying and start living, and just take each day as it comes. Like that Pandit guy told me, there is no use in visualising the future coz usually when you start making plans is when things dont work out. Instead prepare for the future and live in the present. Thats why it is called the PRESENT coz its the best part of your life.

So from now on, I will live my life by these 21 words that have made this bad news seem like nothing to me... "Our main business is not to see what lies dimly at a distance, but to do what lies clearly at hand."